TeeJay's WEIRD LIFE

I watched them change

Into blood hungry savages

It happened right before my eyes

Tearing each other up just for one to survive

They all died

Self destructed life

Everyone who proclaimed truths lied

They all lied 

Hopes of a better life

Bullshit

They fuck with you from the inside

Burn you on the out

All the way until you die

There is no beauty in life

Only false luxury

An I don’t need anyone’s pity

I have enough 

I have strange feelings

I feel tears coming to my eyes

I feel love but i cant decide

I feel hate surging through my life

I feel strong feelings living inside

In recent times they could hide

Now

They’re burning to rise

An itch

A rip

A slip

she trips

An it completely rips

Right off

Into little bits

Hopeless and empty 

Now that It left her

Shes lost all her beauty

Her Real beauty 

.

.

Shes buried

With a dirty shell

buried deep 

With his heat

Now she wants it all

Oh and how they all want her

Fake beauty

I am dead

Only on the off days

Those days

Only on Wednesdays

And thursdays

Almost everyday

I’m done I said goodbye

Strange because i’m physically alive

I breathe

My heart beats 

pumping blood through me

I want it to be as if I were asleep

To feel nothing

I want to go

Somewhere

Were its quiet

Goodbye.

Mad world                                                              

Wild world

Crazed 

And

Unbelievable

But we’re here 

And we’re alive

Dead..and dying 

We believe in things

Fake smiles…..plentiful lies

Truths                                                            

Fights

LIFE

I am the winner

I am the champion

I’ve lost too many times

Too many times before

Now I will rise

I will rise to victory

They will try to bring me down

They will try to take away any hint of my success

I will strive

I wont lose…not this time.

I will win

Tip tipping tip top

I’m almost there to the very top

forward and forward I stop

waiting i’m waiting for a lot 

Tip tipping tip top

I’m falling right off the clock

When i was younger i was so very small

Its hard to believe i was ever that small

But then again i can recall some odd falls

I can remember that day i scared that lady

She walked almost as graceful as the leaves swayed

I remember I sat backwards in this chair

My head about three inches from the ground

I leaned backwards in the chair staring eyes wide

I waited for the graceful lady to pass

I wanted to know if she cared, if anyone did

surely when she passed she stopped dead in place and stared

My eyes wide open as i pretended to be dead

After a while of staring at her panicked face i blinked

I told her i was fine she told me i scared her 

Then she smiled a nervous smile and walked away

It gave me sheer pleasure knowing that this stranger cared

Sometimes i dont know who i am

Well 89% of the time i dont

So i then have to think really hard

Thats when i remember myself

Thats when i remember my purpose

An everyone has a purpose

Even if your just one of those people

That exist just to exist

who was i trying to impress 

I stared into a mirror long ago

We’re all trying to leave a impression

Who was i trying to impress 

I was the presenter and the presentation

Selling myself to the eyes of all,but

Who was i trying to impress 

Was it the ones that bought me 

With kind words and “friendship”

Finding my weakness while feeding; 

They fed their selves my happiness

Who was i trying to impression

They’re all trying to impress each other

I stared into a mirror long ago

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I wanted be myself